Friday, November 12, 2010
WOW! Finally i have the time to update my blog..
hmmm.. it's been a long time since i last updated my blog..
hmm okay la actually.. not as long as i thought ...
haha...
Recently, i find yself messaing you lesser...
Because i know you can't be bothered ,& will only reply me with only one word..
So i decided not to disturb you...
hais... but sms-ing you lesser dosen't mean i'm loving you lesser,
infact, day by day...it is growing stronger~
Im trying to endure....
Gonna flood mysef with work~
Labels: I Need You
♥our lips must always be sealed
1:36 AM
Friday, November 5, 2010
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Hey, back to posting...
Just came back from a Birthday dinner over @ Paramount ....
Ate mountains of food, but end up throwing all up after i got home...
today, i missed you 99.99%....
the other 0.01% was left for u to miss me...
but i know you won't...
Cauz all that is in your heart n soul is her...
toorrow night, i'm leaving to malacca...
how i wish i will recieve a message from you..
hais...but anws...
do check your fcebook inbox...
i've left a message for you..
how i wish you will turn in to my blog,
and see the posts i've written for you...
now it's alr 11.25p.m..
it is pratically 1 day & 35 mins to your birthday...
I can't wish you on the dot, but i can aways be early...
last year, before my birthday ,
you told me that you would be the first to wish me a Happy Birthday..
and you really did it...!
even Joy tat was beside me , failed to do so....
I'm very infuriated ..... i cant be the first to wish u Happy Birthday...
But even i was able to do it... to you it's just a birthday text like all your normal friends does...
it dosent make any difference...
i bet if she were to send u a message....
even if she was the last to wish you,
you will still be so happy...
I wish you knew,
how much i miss you, need you, want you...
Labels: I Need You So Much Closer
♥our lips must always be sealed
7:59 AM
Thursday, November 4, 2010
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Hey there,
it's my third post already...
the day after tomorrow will be your birthday alr...
but i cant wish you a Happy Birthday when the clock strikes 1200...
cauz i'll be over @ malacca & my dumb phone has no auto-roaming....=.=
this sunday, on the exact day of your birthday...
you're meeting your dearest to celebrate your birthday...
how i envy her, to have you beside...
i knew i let you go earlier on...
i utterly regret the stupid stuffs....
I know you're so in love with her...
that pains me a little more each time...
I miss the moments when you wrap your arms around me....
and everytime when i miss you,
the pain just wont get away~
Hey, would you just hear me out,
i'm feeling rather vexed here..
can you lent me rant it all out?
Recently, i felt like i'm being used by my mom.
i wonder why she kept asking me whether if i'm going to buy things back for her daughter...
or if not she willl keep saying " are you just gonna go bk empty handed?"
i felt disgusted you see...
that makes me hate her...
recently, i'm having mixed feelings when i'm with her...
i felt like running away....
how i wish you can come and bring me away from this place...
All i want is you... nothing else~
All these while, ever since primary 5...
All these while, i felt so dumb in love...
i didn't know exactly wad love is...
i'm sorry i didn't place you in priority whenever we're together...
but no....now.. no more...
even we're now not together...
i want you to be my only priority...
i'm sick & tired of all those shits my family & friends gave me...
Hey bby... i need you here with me...
♥our lips must always be sealed
9:49 PM
Hey there!
It's 12.13a.m now...
i''m losing the battle with my eyelids,
however, my mind is still thinking about you...);
Ever since i start work...
there's this particular boy, named Bryan....
He gave me the shock of my life...
He looked
exactly like you...
@ first i thought it was you....but it wasn't..
it's just someone who resembles you....
but way too different from you...
there's been a couple of time when i work the same shift as him...
I swear i couldn't concentrate & focus n my job when he's working..
cauz he is like walking here & there infront of me...
which makes me feel like, it is you that is walking...
I swear he looks 98% like you...
But the difference between you & him is that...
You're 100% perfect...
i know nobody's perfect...
but you're perfect in my eyes...
months... since i last talked to you on phone...
i longed to hear your voice again.
I longed to see those messages you send me...
instead of a one word message...
I need you,
need you so much....
need you to get me out of this place,
I need you,
with the lightning this close i can see...
that so much in this world is make believe...
& this ticking clock isn't for me
& still nobody knew i need you...
I need you,
in my blacker days...
I need you,
with the walls comin down,
I need you,
through this hole in my chest i can feel..
that so much is this world isn't real...
& there's some things you cannot steal...
Tell me what can i do?
To let you know,
how much i need you....
♥our lips must always be sealed
9:07 AM
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Hey peeps...
First post after opening my new blog...
This first post, is dedicated to you...
I Know if you see this,
you may be angry or whatsoever~
But, just wana write down my feelings..
Hey, i want to let you know that...
"I Miss You, Alot!"
I know you treasure & cherish her...
I know she means so much to you..
I know & i know...
after all these while,
after being with a couple of people,
i know that i can't live without you...
i'll be honest....
after you, i fell in love with someone..
i love that person alot... (maybe just like wad you are feeling now)
but... it's impossible... so we broke off...
i dwelled in it for months...
i thought i couldn't let go...
But i did it, & my world didn't crash!
Seeing the person happy, that makes you really happy (;
But there's this person, i never seemed to have let go @ all..
and the person is you...
You can say that i am insane, stupid, crazy...
i'm totally fine with it...
but this time round,
i'm not gonna deny...
Yes!I Cannot live without you...
seeing you so in love with her makes me jealous..
every minute, looking @ the phone,
hoping you would reply my messages...
but you didn't...
that makes me sad...);
I can't completely let go of you,
Let go of us,
All i can say is I Love You..
I know you don't want to hear it.
But it makes no sense to pretend i don't..
I miss you with all of me..
Things get easier,
but will never with you..
I'll cry less,
but the pain will still be there...
The love we shared & gave each other,
Will always remain in my heart forever....
Labels: I Miss You So Much Boy
♥our lips must always be sealed
10:19 PM
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